| Dec. 25th, 2009 @ 08:36 pm Merry Christmas |
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Current Mood:  confused
First, I wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. Ummm, that is, if anyone reads this? How do I add friends, or find out if anyone else has this? Ah, well...
Anyway, things are a bit calmer around here since the last time I posted. Grizzly apologized to me about getting mad, which made me feel a lot better, and it looks like I'm not going to get in any more trouble about what happened. That's a relief.
I got to talk to the music professor here... ummm... I suck at coming up with names for people. I'll call her Marinara for now because I was making pasta when I met her. Marinara is going to try teaching me how to play the drums. I don't know if I'll be any good at it, but when I used to be in the choir in church growing up, I was told I had an okay sense of rhythm... haven't been able to sing too well since my voice changed, but maybe I can do this?
I also went to the end of semester dance... didn't actually dance though, I'm not even sure why I went... actually, know, I do know why. It's the same reason I always go - even though I'm too nervous to do anything, I cross my fingers hoping this time, I'll actually snap out of it and do something.
Well, I didn't dance, but some other crazy stuff happened. This other kid... I'll call him Flirty, was talking to me, Wolf-girl, and Gem. He always says these weird pickup lines whenever he talks to girls, I don't know if he does them right though, because Gem got -really- mad at him, to the point where he turned invisible and ran off (boy this is a weird school).
Then Gem seemed to get mad at me for not paying enough attention to Wolf-girl, which really made me feel bad, since Wolf-girl's one of my best friends and I didn't realize I was ignoring her. Was I? I don't know... I guess I was talking more to Flirty, but that's because -he- was talking more, and, um, I guess I was just replying to him...
I definitely like talking to Wolf-girl more than to Flirty though!
It all ended with Gem taking me aside and deciding she wants to give me a makeover. Try to get me to lose some weight and be more self-confident... I'm sorta happy she's trying to help me but I also kinda feel sucky about it too. I mean... it's one thing for me to always be down on myself, but having a pretty girl like Gem more or less agree that I suck at life doesn't make me feel too good.
Girls... I don't think I'm ever going to get used to them. I mean, before I came to this school, I literally didn't know -any- girls, and now... they're everywhere... And they're really nice (well, most of them), and a lot of them are really pretty... which, I guess, is why I agreed to let Gem try to fix me. Because... I can't even imagine any of them liking me the way I am now. They must all think I'm a total spaz.
But... the way I am now is all I've ever known... Does this mean I'll be losing myself..?
-Reflex
P.S. - I got a few people gifts, I hope they like them...
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OOC: Merry Christmas to all the XMR group! I'll probably end up either having scenes for Ralph to give out presents or page/@mail people as I see them. By the way, if I haven't made it clear before - just because most of these posts tend to be negative doesn't mean I'm not having fun, that's just Ralph being mopey. I enjoy the scenes I've been in, and look forward to many more! |
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